God’s plan is better than mine

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“God’s plan for us is always greater and beautiful than ours.”

I just proved this quotation today, a day before my last day in the permanent post that I dream of for eight years. Yes, you read it right. I am leaving the post I planned to have in the entire years of my professional life. Let me tell you the story of my struggles…

I started my professional race two weeks after I graduated Bachelor of Arts in Development Communication at Central Luzon State University (CLSU). It was April 2009 when a hopeful “probinsyana” went in Makati with her friends to look for a job. I can recall how sad I am when all of my friends successfully had their first job while I took the road back to our province with a very low self-confidence. I can still hear the words of my very disappointed mother when I reached home.

I don’t know how long I stayed at my bed losing hope to find a job. Then one day I saw myself in Cabanatuan City applying in all establishments with the sign “hiring!” Until a BPO Company rang my phone for an interview, the interviewer bought me in La Fortuna College (the owner the BPO also owned the college.) Luckily they hired me, but not as BPO Agent but as secretary of the Vice President of the college. I stayed there for three months and then left for Philippine Center for Postharvest Development and Mechanization (PHilMech).

The happiest days of my professional career happen in PHilMech. I was able to visit different places as contracted Technical Writer for their projects. I always quote that place as “home-like workplace.” But even I was happy at most of my stay in PHilMech, I still dream of a permanent position that the agency can’t provide. They do not have a permanent post to offer for their hundred contracted staffs, and that includes me. Because of that, I started my plan to have a permanent post in the government.

In 2014, I enrolled Certificate of Teaching in CLSU-Open University. I studied online while working at PHilMech. And when I reached the time that I need to have my practice teaching, I filed a resignation in PHilMech and took a big step to finish my second course. After finishing my two months of practice teaching, I again applied in PHilMech and stayed there while having my review in Carl Balita Review Center for my Licensure Examination. I worked during weekdays and had my weekend for a review so I can surely pass the board exam for teachers. I never rested for my dream permanent post.

While waiting for a chance in Department of Education, I enrolled Master of Arts in English major in Applied Linguistics in Nueva Ecija University of Science and Technology (NEUST), I studied on Saturdays and work at PHilMech in weekdays.

Everything was part of my plan to get my way in the Department of Education. The road I took was never easy. I was a mother-student-worker at that time. You can ever consider me “single mom” then because my husband was in Taiwan, working.

Praying for my dream “permanent post” I told God, “Let me pass the board, let me be a teacher so that I can guide my future students on the right path.” Yes, my advocacy as a teacher was never to be the most intelligent and outstanding teacher, my goal is to be God’s servant so that I can tell my students who are in their middle adolescent to never commit premarital affairs or never become aggressive in love.

June 2017, finally, after battling in “ranking procedures” of DepEd, I was hired as Teacher II for Senior High School Department of Carmen National High School.

God gave me my dream post! He was not able to say “NO” with my deal. I am very happy. After eight years, I had the most stable job in our country; I become a public school teacher.

My plan works and I am the happiest.

Fulfilling my deal with God, I created a slogan for my students, and it says, “Minutes of Ecstasy, Forever in Hell.” This is to remind them that there are things that will make them feel happy for a short period of time but may lead to something bad that may ruin their future.

The catch: God’s plan.

I took a very difficult road to have my dream permanent post just to drop it for a much better plan that God created for my me ( for my whole family.)

I am leaving my post for a greener pasture in Canada. My husband successfully became a provincial nominee of Nova Scotia in Canada and I became his dependent together with our kids. And last September (2018) we received our working visa that pushes me to resign on my post. And yes tomorrow, November 23, 2018, I will drop my entire plan to let God move for my future. Believe me; His plan is better than us.

Everyone is asking me why I am leaving my dream post, here is my answer. I am choosing God’s plan for me and my family because His plan is better than mine.

And yes, I am choosing a complete family for my children knowing that I can always find a new “stable” job somewhere.

As God said in Proverbs 19:21, "You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose (for you) will prevail." 

My God gave me an assurance that He has a better plan for me. This is Ma’am Gladys May Zamora-Carganilla, Teacher II, signing-off.