Dreams and Closure

If it's coincidence or not, does it matter?

This is the question that been bothering me today, October 6, 2015, after that dream.

I keep on asking myself, why do I need to know that certain event in his life? And why does this message was thrown to me by heaven tru my dreams?

Dreaming is a normal thing to me. But it is the very first time that my dream convey news or event about someone who is very dear to me six years ago.

In a room, he touched me from my head down to my feet. It brings back the feelings of longing that I already forgotten. In my dream, I cried. In reality I am asking myself, why do I need to cry for him in that dream? Because long time ago, I really cry for him until such time I get tired of crying. And until now, I believe that he is not worth my tears.

In that church, he is in front of me with his bride. I am looking at him, he is staring at me back. There is someone, tall masculine man without face who is comforting me. He is beside me, helping me to feel alright. I don't even know what I feel or think by then. But then In my dreams, I run, he followed me with all his things or baggage in his hands...

I woke up. Chated his cousin in facebook, and tell her about my dreams. The cousin confirmed, he is getting married.

I went in front of my mirror and whispered, 'He is getting married.' All the memories came back...i was teary-eyed. Yes, after six years I almost cry again because of him. And our memories and the heartaches hunted me on my way to school, at my class, and during my lunch break...

It was lunch break, I asked my colleagues about my dreams. A Christian colleague told me, 'it's a vision.' She asked me the details of my dreams...then explained it to me. I think she's right, even everything happen six years ago, I still have to know the reason behind that dream.

Closure...yeah we never have closure. And maybe one of us need that to go on in our own life. Maybe he needs closure? Or maybe me...do I?

Until now...I am asking myself, why do I need to see him in my dreams? This will remain unanswered until such time that we meet again. But then again, does it matter? He is my past, once became the most important person in my life. But that was before and will never happen again.